indigolivia | Windier Than I Anticipated, Surprisingly

I moved! Up, Out, About, Across, Through, I moved! My mind got bigger and fatter, my body shrunk to fit my one bedroom apartment. Square feet, Cold feet, I wish I missed you more than I do. Im tacking up posters, Im googling how fast the trains go. Im basking on a rock by the lake, Im picturing my brains on the third rail of the subway. I have two bows in my hair, they are tied with hangmans knots. I sent you photos of my first week, all you said was that I looked "so happy", and you couldnt be more wrong, and you couldnt be more right. I am walking everywhere! I am googling the calories it burns. I am going on dates! Which feel like a light kiss from the sun on my cheeks at first, and then feel like sticking my hand into a jar of barbed wire and lemon juice. Im meeting sweet, kind, people, they make me feel demented. In the mirror I seem so sweet. In the mirror I seem so cute. I thought once I was sweet, once I was cute, everything would fall into place for me. It did! and then it did not. I feel lost. Which way is the walgreens? How do. I use the bus? Can I sleep over so soon? Are you thinking about me?

Are you?